So as some of you may have noticed, my presence during February thus far has been lacking. There has been some chaos since late last month. Basically every dimension in my life had some sort of change this month. So, it has been chaotic, and intense while simultaneously being an amazing storm in which to plant my garden of change. (ooo, I am getting all metaphor-y in this)
TLDR: I broke up with my girl, had surgery, am moving, found a new partner and am loving life right now!
We are at the end of the month, and March is going to be amazing and full of content, so I figured I would share some of the upheaval that has been around me.
Beginning of February, I had a surgery, minor, no big deal but everything is nuts when you take blood thinners on the regular so that was fun. I might have to take up needle play as a kink. Let me tell you, I am getting to be very good with a syringe. Surgery, the lead up and the recovery took some time. All went well, my INR is not where it should be, my mother stayed with me for a few days. It was like a little vacation for her which was great.
Prior to the surgery, I broke things off with my partner. They are a multitude of reasons, but really, it came down to the energy just not vibing in a way that was conducive to what I want/need from my relationships. It was hard on her. It was not hard on me, so just to give an idea about the nature of the dynamic. There are no hard feelings on my end, and I don’t mind having this person in my life, but the way it was just didn’t work. And I needed to end things prior to my surgery, so it may have been a little abrupt for her.
So yeah. A bit of a change. I must admit it was a positive change. I couldn’t understand why whenever we played or whenever we hung out I felt like an asshole. (She never made me feel that way, it was internal.) Ultimately, what I learned is that if the dynamic outwardly looks like it works, but you feel uneasy or like something is off, listen to that.
Moving on… speaking of moving… During my recovery, while my mother was with me, I made a decision. After five million years living where here, I will be moving. In May. My current landlords are dickheads and live below me. They were making content creation difficult for me, too noisy apparently… Hypnosis… too noisy… wtf. My typing on my keyboard was a source of much aggression. So I will be moving in May. I am very much so looking forward to it.
So I don’t know what combination of change has brought this about but I am feeling fucking incredible. I have been in an amazing mood for weeks now. In February, in Canada, in Quebec… this time of year revolves around depression and sugar shacks. I don’t know what is the reason behind it but I have just feeling great.
Also found a new person to play with, I haven’t spoken with them about how much detail I can put here, so let’s just say it is promising 🙂
So that is the end of my February round up. I know I was a little out of character this month with my creations and posting but the world is back to normal, or something similar. I have some amazing things coming out in March, so be on the look out. More details coming soon.
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